Sunday, June 8, 2008

Sad and in a Daze

 
Hi everyone!  I haven't much felt like being online the past couple of days.  I've been in a real funk and kinda depressed.  I've been crying a lot too since Friday night.  One of the clients I really liked committed suicide.  I just saw her on Wednesday and she didn't seem to be any different than she always has.  She has had bouts of depression in the past.  I feel like there should have been something I could have done to have prevented it and I feel a lot guilty right now.  Maybe I'm not cut out for this kind of work.
 
I want to acknowledge my friend Jimmy for picking me as one of his editor's picks this week.  I have had two in two weeks and I feel special here in J-land. 
 
Kasey Kahne won the Nascar race today and that made me a little bit happy.  Usually I'd be ecstatic about that but I am just not feeling it at the moment.  I really wish I could reset the hands of time and go back to Wednesday and change the outcome of the events for the rest of the week.  I'm sorry if I'm a downer today so I will just leave this entry at that. 
 
Hope you will all have a good week.  Luv ya!

12 comments:

peytonswater said...

((((((((((((((((((( Allison)))))))))))))))))))) Sweetie, I am very sorry to hear about this person. I can understand how this could bring you down some in a funk. However, I'm sure your not the only one thinking there is something that maybe you missed or could have done. But the fact is, that just isn't so in every case and you know that.  You do the best you can as a person to reach out, however you can't save everyone.  Stay strong sweetie, your totally awesome and your in my thoughts.
Luv
Ang

johhnw said...

I'm sorry Allison.   But I will bet  you all you have that there was nothing, short of confining the person, that could have changed the outcome.   You ARE cut out for what you do, and I hope this does not deter you from helping the many many many many others who's lives you have and will touch.      Love you....     J

mleighin21st said...

Oh Allison, I am so sorry to hear about your client.  I know it isn't easy, but to feel guilty for not doing more, you know better.  Go ahead and be sad, feel sorry that there wasn't more you could do, but this may have been a sudden decision, nothing you could have anticipated.  Just from what you're like online, shows that you're very suited for your line of work.  You're just going through something tough right now.   {{{Allison}}}
                                                                             Leigh

 

nightmaremom said...

awwww hon I'm so sorry....  we all know if there was something you could have done you would have...  realize that... this is not your fault at all.  Sending hugs your way and I do hope you bounce back soon.  
love ya
d

yakima127 said...

I am sure it is hard.  There is nothing anyone can say to make it any better.  I do know that most of the time, when someone is intent on ending their life, they actually seem better...because they have made a decision.  And are ready.  It is just the illness.  Sometimes it just cannot be prevented, no matter what you "see" or do.  Sad, really, and believe me when I say, when in the midst of depression, logic is non existant, and all that prevails is darkness.  And sometimes we just don't think we will ever see the light, again.  
I am so sorry for what has happened, but it really does not reflect on you in the least as far as ability and effectiveness goes...
Hope you feel better...
Love,
Jae

cherry2sweet2eat said...

im sorry allison for the lost of your friend.

ukgal36 said...

I AM SORRY YOU LOST A CLIENT...I HAVE BEEN IN A FUNK AS YOU KNOW AND IT BITES..I AM SO HAPPY TO BE FEELING BETTER...THESE FUNKS OF MINE SEEM TO BE LASTING LONGER AND ARE HARDER TO GET OUT OF..DO YOU THINK I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE...
HOW SELFISH AM I ASKING YOU THAT WHEN YOU ARE DOWN YOURSELF...I'M SORRY HUNNY...
HUGS FROM FLORIDA
LYN

glensfork4 said...

((((HUGS))))...

sorry...and I know that is not enough to be said....but there isn't anything I could say to make it better or go away.

You are good at what you do.....because of you.

Michele

mastersblynn said...

dON'T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF. YOU ALWAYS CHEER ME UP

lisa41076 said...

Awwwwww hon, big hugs to you and winks and hugs from my favorite beautiful Foxy lady too, Love You Lisa

acoward15 said...

What's the Nascar?
http://journals.aol.co.uk/acoward15/andy-the-bastard/

sugerb6 said...

Allison I'm sorry to hear about you losing someone who touched your life. You're a caring person and even if you could turn back time the outcome would most likely have been the same. Being depressed and crying shows you care about the well being of others.
Hugs
Debbie