Saturday, August 11, 2007

Lonely Saturday

Here is it a beautiful sunny summer Saturday in Southern California and all I have to do is sit here.  It is liberating and all being able to be back online again.  I've missed being here and the friends that I made over a year again.  Renewing friendships and making new ones are important to me.
Rene is at work, which is kind of a blessing to me right now.  I need some space from him.  He does continue to check on me via the phone it seems every hour.  Rene is a jealous man.  He is afraid that if I have any friends that I will somehow leave him for greener pastures or something.  I do love him and I know he loves me but sometimes I feel so smothered by him.  I try to be devoted to him but he makes that so hard sometimes.  He stays out late when he isn't working so he can be out with his friends, all the while not wanting me to do anything without him.  Maybe I will go to my parents house and spend a little time with my mom and dad.  My sister just got married last month and she moved all the way to Seattle.  I miss her lots.
I really don't have that much to say right now, or at least don't have the words to put them into writing at the moment.  I will be eating dinner alone tonight, which seems to be the norm these days.

1 comment:

johhnw said...

I don't think I need to tell you that this is not how marriage is suppose to work.   :(