Hmmm. A question from my last entry I think I should address.
I was asked if Rene completes my life then why would I need a third wheel like Heather?
I have to say that I hardly consider my friend Heather a third wheel, whether it be in romance or anything else. I can say that my life was a long way from being complete some three or four years ago. At that point I was working in a bank at a job that wasn't fulfilling and I had a boyfriend at the time that turned out to be a cheater. In fact, I walked in on him with his new found love in our bed. That ended our relationship on the spot. Believe me, that was absolutely no fun and it really pained me to the core inside and emotionally I was pretty much a wreck, though I tried hard on the outside to pretend that I was unaffected.
Since then, I was reunited with Rene after several years of not seeing him. He enlisted and was in Iraq for a time. We had grown apart and I really don't know why. Rene was my first love going back to Junior High School. He was the first man I had ever made love to. Then, somehow, we drifted apart by the end of our Senior year in High school. I really did miss him and there was an emptiness inside.
I didn't have a whole lot of friends in those days either. That brings me to Heather. I met her a few years ago when I decided to go back to college and complete my education so I could get myself into a career I found fulfilling and something that I felt I could make a difference in. We hit it off from day one. We did so many things together. I never had a friend like her before and I am pretty sure that she had never known friendship like I was showing her either. So I guess you can say we were joined at the hip for a while then.
Our relationship has grown through the years and has gotten closer and closer while I had a relationship renaissance with Rene. I don't throw my true friends under the bus for anything and Rene was aware of that. What I hadn't expected was that I would end up having a physical relationship with Heather along with the closeness true friendship brings. I have kind of stated this in the past so I am going to come right out and say it now. I now consider myself bisexual. Rene is aware of this and we have been able to work through this and even incorporate it into our lives. I think at this point I would be lost without either of them in my life. They both complete me. They both help to shape who and what I am today, as well as keep my grounded. I love them both on so many levels.
Romance comes in many shapes and forms. I guess you can say that I like my cake and I eat it too. I'm not asking for anyone to morally agree with my lifestyle. You either accept an individual for who they are or you don't. I have a belief of live and let live. I never try to be judgmental about anyone and their situation. I choose to make LOVE my primary life's goal. Love, happiness, faith, friendship, being positive, smiling and just going with the flow has been my life for several years now.
I have grown, learned about who and what I am, and have accepted it. I hope that all of you understand that and like me for who I am. I do care about all of you that choose to come here and read what I have to say and leave comments. I read them all, and I appreciate each and everyone of them and you for taking the time out of your day, and to care enough to be here with your heart and to grace my life with your presence.
Ok, I think I won't go on and on. I do hope that this answers the question and that maybe all of you know me a little better now. I hope you will all have the most enjoyable of weekends and always keep a smile on your face because it is infectious.
Luv ya! Ta Ta For Now!